I sent a package to Brandon in Japan 17 days ago. 12 if you take away the days that the mail didn't run. At any rate its been way too long and I'm worried about it. I emailed the USPS but they said since its going to an APO that its no longer in their jurisdiction. So I had to mail a letter to some agency in Virginia asking them to locate it. I have something else to send him but I'm afraid to now!!

Today is my birthday! I have no plans so far. I assume I'll be going out and finding the best happy birthday drink specials! Its my moms birthday too so I suppose I'll be going out with her. Mom bought me a haircut/color for my birthday. Its really cute, short with bangs and dark brown with some caramel colored highlights. Very pretty.

Last night my friend Waylon called me and helped me set up a training routine for the gym. Waylon is a personal trainer but he lives in Illinois so he's trying to help me over the phone. I have a list of exercises to do on particular days, how to do them and everything. He also talked to me about how we build muscle and how different types of workouts do different things for your body. I'm not going to type all of it out here but its really great to have someone to be able to ask questions and get ideas from. I take classes in the evenings, whatever is going on in the 6:45 timeslot after my workout is done. I like doing the BodyPump class at Golds but they moved the schedule around and last night in its time slot was BodyCombat. Something new for me but it looked fun, karate, kickboxing and taichi. That class was TOUGH omg!! Not only was is constant moving, jumping and running but there were a lot of moves you had to learn and then coordinate quickly. I worked HARD. I'm definitely going back but its probably going to take me a few classes to be able to follow the moves!! In 6 weeks I will report back to Waylon and he is going to adjust my routine so my muscles don't get used to what I'm doing. YAY for free personal trainer :P

Me: My birthday is 1-8-81 it’s a palindrome!
Vince: Oh neat, that explains your personality!
Me: Really? What's that mean?
Vince: I don't know I just made that up.

My birthday is Friday! Mom gave me a gift certificate to get my hair done. I haven't had it cut in months so I'm going today, super excited. Saturday we're going out to dinner with some friends. German food at Julia's, I love that place. I have no plans for my actual birthday yet but I'm sure it is going to be going out somewhere. We shall see.

Mom and I decided to go out Saturday night. We tried a new place since the regular place wasn't very busy. They had karaoke and a girl I used to work with was there so we stayed. Sitting at the bar chatting away I can feel the person behind me starting at me. Trying to ignore it I swear I can hear him breathing. So mom tells me "steph I think that guy behind you wants your attention". At this point I haven't even looked to see him because I'm kinda creeped out by the vibe I was getting from his piercing eyes.

"he's creepy isn't he?"
"yep"
"give him a dirty look so he'll quit"
My mom's incapable of giving dirty looks apparently so she says "stop staring at her". Apparently that meant, stop staring and talk to her. So creepy boy in his Guns n' Roses t-shirt moves to the seat right next to me. Yes, I could feel him staring and hear him breathing from 2 seats away and now I can smell him too. Essence of stale cigarette with a hint of parents basement is what I would guess he smelled like. So I turn my back to him and try to ignore the fact that he's now trying to join in our conversation. I was telling mom I really wanted to sing karaoke so creepy boy practically falls out of his chair running to find a song book. It was at that point that we decided to leave. He tried to get my phone number and I was really polite saying no but he acted like it was the biggest shock he'd ever heard, throwing his hands into the air and staring at me like I must be nuts.

Also, next time there's karaoke I am going to sing Lita Ford's Kiss me Deadly.

"You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She's not perfect - you aren't either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don't hurt her, don't change her, don't analyze and don't expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she's not there."

-Bob Marley

Shynnee.com

How cool is this? Brandon bought me Shynnee.com! I feel so cool and special :) It directs you to this blog. Now I feel like I should put more important awesome things here. Then again, everything I say is important and awesome :P

He also sent me a big box of cool Japanese things! Some of my favorite items: everything chocolate, a t-shirt that looks like I'm wearing a health kit from Left 4 Dead, Hibiscus flowers you put in a glass of champagne, energy drink that is in a packet that looks like donated blood, a stuffed tank puppy I can dress, dried fish and nuts, neat little brew your own coffee packs and an MRE that he's going to make me eat eventually. Ok that wasn't just some of my favorite things that was everything. I loved it all! Meltykisses are officially my favorite chocolates ever.

I got my brother the MW2 Combat Controller for his PS3. He's gonna be so happy. I see him look it up online everyday and we went to Best Buy and he showed it to me at least a dozen times. I found a "collectors edition" at GameStop, it comes in a special case. Not that it'll ever go into the case, kid plays 24/7! I let Shannon open her plush sushi and edamame keychain because she was having a bad day the other day and it put her in a good mood.

We're going to see Avatar for Christmas tomorrow! I'm stoked, everyone says the movie is great. They are actually playing a 3D version we're going to try and get into. Then moms making Christmas Dinner. I'm a little sad its not ham but she promised me ham for New Years. Have I mentioned before that I have an obsession with ham? The stuff is fantastic. Can't get enough!

The Gift

I went to a Christmas Party last night. At the party I was in charge of the games. We played a getting to know you game where I had everyone write down something about themselves nobody would know. Then we all had to guess who's who. It was fun. My other game was you take a pair of panty hose (everyone freaked when I started handing out panty hose by the way) and blow up balloons, first person who fills their hose all the way puts their "antlers" on wins. Everyone had fun with it.

We also did a Chinese gift exchange. Where everyone draws a number and when its your turn you can choose a gift or steal someone else's. Well I got to my turn and there were some so-so gifts out there so I decided to take my chances at the table. I picked this cute cloth bag with candy canes on it. Opened it up and there was some candles and candy and a book. YAY! I love books! The book was a bible..a camouflage bible.

I get that I live in the south and when it comes to things like this I am the minority, but here's the thing about holy roller that thought it'd be a good idea to give a gift like that. When we were playing the getting to know you game her secret about herself was : "I like to stay out dancing until early morning." When asked "oh, what kind of dancing do you like?" her reply? "Depends on which bar I'm at".

Reminds me of Jim Gaffigan "can we hurry this along, I've got some sinnin' to do".

2009 of awesomeness

2009 rocked for me. Looking back I can name one or 2 things that stood out and made each month awesome. I can only hope to keep the momentum through 2010. Here's some highlights from my 2009:

January-2 weeks spent in North Carolina for training for my awesome new job
February-2 more weeks in NC and a trip to Virginia beach to see my sister!
March-Trip to Myrtle Beach with Lindsy and Nicole for Lindsy's bday.
April-Lindsy and mom at my place all month, bonfire nights out in Batesburg
May-Trip to Hawaii to see Brandon!
June-Stayed at the Lake in an awesome cabin with friends.
July-4th of July pool party at my place and a fun trip to Savanna, GA!
August-Trip to Charlotte, saw a live band. Amazing dinner at my fav place, PF Changs. Trip to AL for work.
September-Cody moved in. hadn't seen my brother in a YEAR. Trip to VA to visit Lindsy and Jake
October-Charleston with Brandon, awesome comedy club! Halloween party, dressed as Marilyn Monroe
November-Evening at the State Fair, Thanksgiving full of yum and joined Golds Gym and the bowling team!
December-Visit from Lindsy, photo shoot with her and cody, christmas parties and CHRISTMAS!

I met tons of new people this year and tried out lots of new things. I learned a lot about myself and the things that I enjoy.

 I lived my life this year and it was amazing.

My brother, sister and myself went to get photos done last weekend. My sister Lindsy drove down from Virginia with her GIGANTIC dog Sampson. He's a German Shepherd. He also tortured Tank the whole time. Sampson just wanted to play and Tank just wanted to not have his head in Sam's mouth. Good times.

The photos turned out really good. We did some traditional smile and pose ones and then we got to do some silly ones too. One where we were fighting and one where my sister and I were kissing my brother and he was rolling his eyes. Totally cute. Its part of our Christmas gift to our dad. He's gonna love it. I posted them on Facebook and Myspace.

We tried to have dinner at my all time favorite place to eat Mikinos but they were closed for the holidays. Musta went on vacation. So we went to Copper River instead. I'd never eaten there, it was awesome! Not to mention the service was really great. Our waiter was an asian guy named Herman which I thought was kind of silly but it helped me remember his name. He was fun and gave great service, which is always important to me.

We wanted to go see the Christmas lights in Sumter at Swan Lake but it was late and that’s a long drive. I'm going sometime this week I think. I've seen photos on the website, it looks really pretty. I'm going to bring my camera and see if I can get some photos. I think if I just turn the flash off it'll turn out pretty cool. We shall see!!

I'm really excited about the Christmas gift I got Shan. She's obsessed with eating sushi and I found some plush Sushi on thinkgeek.com (yes like a stuffed sushi pillow thing) so I got her that along with an edamame keychain, the little pea pops up. Its adorable. I wasn't sure what to get Brandon so I just filled a box with random things that I thought he might like. I can't wait for my brother to get his, I got him Scribblenauts. I got my dad a bar set that looks like a chemistry set! Totally awesome. I'm in love with thinkgeek.com by the way. Its ok that I spilled my gifts here, none of those people read my blog ;)

 

Nonsense and rambling.

I really like that I can email my blogs in now. So I can just ramble and compile my blog throughout the day and send when I've run out of things to say. Enjoy!

I joined a bowling league for something to do on Monday nights. I'm a pretty horrible bowler but its just a fun league and you get a free bowling ball for joining. Last night they gave us coupons for Christmas so now I have a big book of bowling coupons. I decided to take my tellers sometime, they are pretty excited about that.

Tonight at the gym is shoulders. My 2 favorite things to work out are shoulders and back. I think because for the most part my shoulders and back always hurt, everyday. So I know when I build some muscle there they will likely start to feel better. Plus all the exercises I do for them get the muscles hot and stretched out so the pain goes away for awhile while I'm working out.

Man I can't believe the year is almost over! 2009 was definitely a big year for me, so many changes and so many awesome things happening for me. I think I'll make an end of year look back post, I need to make a list first. I already have a pretty exciting 2010, looking at flights to Japan today. Its like 6 months off and Brandon has our whole trip mapped out almost! My sister is turning 21 in March and we're planning a vacation for that.

Final note-It is my personal opinion that women should never wear camouflage. Ever.

The Jewelry

I moved recently to a bigger apartment. I've been living in a 500 sqft place so you can imagine that I don't actually own that many things. I don't collect anything so the stuff that I do own is either meaningful or useful or both. As I was moving I noticed that some of my jewelry was missing. These are items I don't wear because they are expensive and I don’t want to mess them up. I didn't stress about it because I thought maybe my mother had put it into her safe. When she got back I had her look inside just to make sure and it wasn't there.

I'm missing:
Diamond Earrings
Gold Garnet and Diamond Ring
Gold band with hearts shaped into the band
Gold and Pearl Necklace
Silver ring with blue, green and purple colored diamonds in it.
Heart shaped gold ring with diamond chips in it

I placed an ad on Craigslist and I have been looking at local pawn shops, I filed a police report and a claim with my renters insurance. Yea they will give me some cash, but man. I have so many cool expensive things in my apartment, why my family jewelry?? I'd trade everything I own to get that stuff back, its simply not replaceable. I am positive that it was workers coming into my apartment for various reasons. I have had one person stay the night in my apartment and I'm positive that person 1. wasn't alone in my bedroom and 2. wouldn't steal from me for any reason. I'm sick over this.

Mustachio!

Played some Left 4 Dead 2 the other night with Nick, Jon and AJ. We found a Whack-a-Mole type game in the Dark Carnival map. It was called Whack-a-Stache and instead of moles popping up it was pistachios with mustaches! When they popped out they yelled "Mustachio!". Very cute and I've been saying Mustachio! for days now. You get an achievement for beating the Whack-a-Stache game, which is basically the 4 of us shooting at the thing each time one popped out. Still loving that game.

Brandon got me Serious Sam:HD and I've been playing that today. Its a Doom style FPS game. I haven't tried Multiplayer yet but the Single Player is fun, I like the monsters and so far my favorite are these headless guys that come running at you screaming and they have bombs on their hands. If they get too close they explode on you. I just like how they yell AHHHHHHH!

Yesterday mom and I went shopping. I got most of my Christmas gifts online this year so besides the few things I needed to pick up for local people I mostly shopped for myself. Old Navy had a sweater sale, too bad when I got to the counter only 1 of the three I chose were actually on sale. I had already fallen in love with them so I got them anyway. After shopping we decided to grab a beer before going home so we stopped at Carolina Ale House. It was fun but as the bar area got more crowded we realized we were the only women in the place and that was attracting much unwanted attention and more drinks than we could handle, so we left and went to the comfort spot, McCareys.

Nicole had a purse party yesterday afternoon. I've never been to one before but it was neat. Very similar to Pampered Chef, PartyLite and all those other shop at home companies. They were selling purses, totes, and accessories. I got my sister a cute handbag and I bought myself a organizing tote. Its got lots of pockets and places to put things and the fabric is super cool. I'll probably use it for a gym bag or to put my sewing stuff in. Christmas time really makes the girl come out in me. haha.

Speaking of the gym, I haven't updated my okfinefinefine blog because its redundant. I'll probably end up mentioning everything I do here and since I joined bodybuilding.com to track my measurements theres no point to a separate blog. I'll delete it soon. I started going to classes at the gym now, Monday mornings is Boot Camp, Wednesdays BodyPump (favorite so far) and Saturday is BodyStep. Tuesday, Thursday and Sunday I do regular workouts and cardio still. Besides the fact that my entire body aches pretty much all the time I am starting to feel stronger already. My first 30 day measure date is the 11th, this coming Friday. I am confident I will see a difference.

Never Try and Yankitize Me

Me: Don't call me sugar

Friend: darlin?

Friend: honey?

Friend: sporty?

Me: Steph

Friend: lmao

Me: Honey, darlin ect sounds condescending

Friend: ok didnt mean to offend, i am what we call southern, so i do use sugar and darlin a lot and they arent meant to come off as sexist or whatever..............they are kinda like saying ma'am when i use them

Me: I know

Me: I'm yankee-inizing you

Friend: meanass

Me: Or teaching you how to speak to one

Friend: never try and yankitize me

Me: Haha

Friend: it aint happenin

Friend: although i can pull of a pretty good chicago accent

Me: I gotta hear that

Friend: oh i know how to speak to "yall", just cuss a lot and never actually show any respect. its simple

Friend: and speak loudly also

Friend: show zero manners

Friend: and just be an all around ass........which shockingly enough, i can pull off ;)

Why does speaking loudly with no manners sound so appealing to me? ...I need to take a trip back home soon.

The Pen

My favorite pen has left my desk leaving behind only a note that reads:

"Don't worry...

I'm ok. I just went out

4 some fun. Hey...you

got 2 go on vacation

this year...

With Love, The Pen"

its been several weeks and my pen has not returned so I have left a note for it to find upon its return:

"Dear Pen,

I hope you've enjoyed your

travels. Much has happened

over the last few weeks.

Sorry for doing this in a

letter but...

I've replaced you with

a younger, thinner, move

attractive pen. I hope

you understand...I have

needs. Its not you, its me.

Regards,

Stephanie"

Blalock's Indie Rock Playlist

So as I download music recently I realized that a lot of the songs I've been choosing were from "Blalock's Indie Rock Playlist". So I googled it and found this site, apparently this dude Blalock compiles a monthly playlist of new music and you can torrent it. Each list is about 125 songs. So far March, August and October have the most songs I like. But I wanted to share, cool stuff in there. Enjoy!!

According to this my Xbox is feeling "Emo" because I haven't played it much. Don't worry little buddy, I picked up Dragon Age: Origins and Assassins Creed 2 yesterday! I also got my long awaited Left 4 Dead 2 and played a bit with Brandon until my stupid dumb annoying internet disconnected and then he had to go to bed. I finally got back on and was able to jump into the finale with AJ, Nick and Hisan. Very cool thing, instead of just fighting off wave after wave of zombies you actually have to complete objectives. For example, we had to collect 13 gas cans that were spread around the area and fill up a car to get out. This requires even more team work than before, I throughly enjoy it. Not sure how I feel about the new characters yet though Ellis reminds me constantly what I don't like about South Carolina, even if he is pretty funny.

Dragon Age: Origins is just awesome. I only did my first quest but the customization, amount of quests and the fact that its single player but you're playing with a group and you can actually switch to other party members makes the gameplay really interesting. There are customizable battle plans (a bit like a complicated wow macro), tons of side quests and your responses shape your story line. I'm playing an Elven Mage right now.

I haven't touched Assassins Creed 2 because I would like to have more than just an hour or so to play, review to come :)

Today on the news they talked about how the government says not all women should have to be screened for mammograms in their 30s and 40s. They did NOT say if you are in your 30s or 40s its completely unnecessary to get them but you know the news they like to word things in such a a way. Of course all day I hear women in an uproar about this new piece of information. C'mon guys. If you are in your 30's and early 40's, nobody in your family has had breast cancer, you're healthy and you do self exams (which every woman that has breasts should be doing by the way) and not an "at risk" case you really do not need to get a mammogram. Yes, of course there are exceptions to this rule, there are exceptions to every rule but they are as common as a freak bowling ball accident.

-as an aside about the self exams and a note to how important they are, my best friend does them religiously and found a lump a few weeks ago. Went to have it checked out and is having it removed this week, the chances of it being anything are slim but you never know.

Moral of the story - know your medical background, be responsible for care and maintenance of your body, listen to your doctors advice. Just because you turned 30 does not mean you are at risk for breast cancer.

Clearly

I'm moving! Not far though.

My apartment complex emailed me last week to let me know my lease was expiring. I had planned on renewing but I wanted to check the complex next to mine to see what rates they were offering on their one bedrooms. So I emailed her back and said I was thinking about moving because they were bigger next door. I get an email back from her offering me an upgrade. 200 more square feet and a fireplace for the same price I was going to renew my current lease for! How awesome is that?! I move Friday.

I think its great how usually when you tell people you're moving they have 100 other things to do. But everyone I have told has offered to help! I have people supplying boxes, helping me pack, moving my big stuff and helping me unpack! This should be great!!

I preordered Left 4 Dead 2 and while in Game Stop I almost ordered Assassins Creed 2 as well but they had a deal going on, trade in 2 games and get it for $20. SWEET. So Tuesday when I pick up L4D2 I'm gonna snag Assassins Creed 2! Great week for gaming.

I downloaded "Never Been to Spain" by Three Dog Night the other day. So far I'm the only person I know that loves the song. Clearly I have amazing taste and everyone else sucks. Clearly.

CoD MW2

Yes I guess I am the only person I know not SUPER OMGWTF STOKED for Call of Duty: Modern Warfare 2

Friend: Imma go home, and patiently wait on UPS guy. When the game gets there I will quickly rush to the kitchen and get a knife and open the game.

shynnee123: You don't have it yet /gasp

Friend: At that point I will hear angels singing and I imagine it will be something like Charleston Heston in that movie The Ten Commandments when he parted the red seas…….I will even hear the exact same music playing.

Friend: I will then rush to the xbox, turn it on and gently slide in the disc. I imagine that will feel like the first time I had sex but better. The hard drive will be a bit tight, but probably not as wet ya know?

Friend: Then as the opening cut scene plays I will bask in the glory of my accomplishment of scoring the greatest game in the history of the universe!

Wow. Just wow. I'm still not buying it..

On another note, Left 4 Dead 2 comes out next week and Assassins Creed 2 shortly after that. So I can be OMGWTF stoked in my own little way.

Mitch Hedberg

I've been lol'ing all morning reading a Mitch Hedberg thread. Enjoy some of my favorite quotes:

A severed foot is the ultimate stocking stuffer.

This shirt is "dry clean only"... which means it's dirty.

I haven't slept for 10 days, because that would be too long.

I saw this wino, he was eating grapes. I was like, "Dude, you have to wait."

also - I saw this rhino, and he was eating grapes, and i said, "what the fuck is a rhino doing in italy"

I'm against picketing, but I don't know how to show it.

I like refried beans, which makes me want to try fried beans. Because maybe they're just as good and we're wasting time.

Is a Hippopotamus really a Hippopotamus, or is it just a really cool Opotamus?

I went to a record store, they said they specialized in hard-to-find records. Nothing was alphabetized.

Escalators can never break, they can only become stairs

smokey the bear is a lot more intense in person

If you find yourself lost in the woods, fuck it! Build a house. "Well, I was lost, but now I live here. I have severely improved my predicament

At the end of my letters, I like to write "P.S. — This is what part of the alphabet would look like if Q and R were eliminated

One time, this guy handed me a picture of him, he said,"Here's a picture of me when I was younger." Every picture is of you when you were younger. "Here's a picture of me when I'm older." "You son-of-a-bitch! How'd you pull that off? Lemme see that camera... what's it look like?

I want to hang a map of the world in my house, and then I’m gonna put pins into all the locations that I’ve traveled to. But first I’m gonna have to travel to the top two corners of the map so it won’t fall down.

There's a commercial on late-night TV for this thing you attach to a garden hose. It says, "You can water your hard-to-reach plants with this product." Who the fuck would make their plants hard to reach!? That seems so very mean. "I know you need water, but I'm gonna make you hard to reach. I will throw water at you. Hopefully, they'll invent a product before you shrivel and die. Think like a cactus!

Sometimes I wave to people I don't know... very dangerous to wave to someone you don't know, because what if they don't have a hand? They'll think you're cocky. "Look what I got motherfucker! This thing is useful... I'm gonna go pick something up."

Someone on my Facebook friends list updated his status to say "is this where you want to be when Jesus comes back?" Well, no. I hope I'm in a bunker somewhere with weapons because it means the zombie apocalypse is finally upon us.

Last night I went to the state fair. Rode some fun rides, won a stuffed animal and restrained myself from eating things like funnel cakes, corn dogs and chocolate covered bacon (yea wtf). Read more about all that on my fat girl blog okfinefinefine.blogspot.com

The coolest thing at the fair was an amazing sand sculpture. It was huge, an entire woodlands theme complete with trees, animals and it was so incredibly detailed. Wish I'd have brought my camera with me.

Tonight I'm going to dinner with Nicole, Monday was her birthday and I got her one of those horrid ugly purses she so badly wanted. Then home to carve my pumpkin! I love fall!!

I mean, seriously, NOWHERE? For starters there are like a thousand species of dinosaurs

HAHA, this IS totally me.

This weekend will be a good time. Tomorrow morning I am headed out to Nicole's house to set up for her mom's surprise 50th bday party, then going over to Newberry for Kristina and Bennies wedding (yay guys!). Then back out to Nicoles for the party, I LOVE her mom. This lady took me in as her own kid almost immediately, inviting me to family stuff like Thanksgiving, Christmas and New Years when my family wasn't here. Totally being there for me when I was having issues with Tim. I'm stoked to celebrate her birthday!

I don't think my mom realizes that Lindsy and I keep NO secrets. Literally, I don't think I can even speak to my sister without telling her every little detail about everything in my life. We just don't do secrets. So mom tells Lindsy that she's been watching LOST on her laptop without Cody and I and not to tell me. WTF!? She's ruining family night! She went so far as to buy her own Netflix subscription so that we wouldn't see that she shows had been watched (on xbox when you watch a show it marks it as watched even if you delete it from the queue and re-add it). So of course Lindsy calls me right away with this news. jerk.

Next week starts my eat right and stop being a fat girl routine. I'm going to blog about it so I have some accountability. You can find the blog here okfinefinefine.blogspot.com don't look today, its not started yet. I have a little motivation to do what I'm doing so hopefully I can stick to it.

The Rubber Galoshes

So Brandon and I are at a Food and Wine Fest, very cool by the way. I have a tendency to check out other girls. For one, girls are pretty and two, I like to see what they are wearing because it helps me when I have to dress myself. I notice a couple girls wearing rubber galoshes. Ugly ones. Well to be honest there are no cute galoshes. They are almost as horrible as Crocs, in my opinion. Anyway I point this out to Brandon and he and I start counting how many girls were wearing these things. TONS! One chick had on a straw beach hat, safari dress and galoshes. She wasn't sure if she was going to the beach, on a safari or trekking through marshes but whatever it was she was covered....too bad she was on a plantation at a food and wine festival.

Speaking of chicks at the festival. There was this smokin hot girl in a green dress that I couldn't stop staring at! Brandon says she looks like Caprica from Battlestar Galactia, she totally did.

I've been playing Scribblenauts, it came in the mail last Friday. I refuse to use the obvious methods of getting to things. Like flying around in a spaceship instead of just climbing. The game is hilarious though.

Spent this past weekend in Charleston and decided Charleston might need a Stephanie but it has to offer a giant balcony downtown. I'll keep updated on how negotiations are going. Saw The Have Not's they were great. Improv comedy. Saw the aquarium, went to a food festival, went on the aircraft carrier and submarine and walked on the beach at night. It was a great trip.

Also I found out that you can get Acai Bowls in Charleston! First place in SC I have found yet. However, I have become so obsessed with these that I can make them at home now!
Acai Bowl
1 acai smoothie mix
like 1/2 c apple juice or soy milk (up to you)
1 banana
blueberries
ice
granola
honey
mix 1 smoothie pack with a banana, apple juice and some ice, top with blueberries, granola and drizzle in honey
AMAZING OMG

So many games so little time!

I will not play Aion, I will not play Aion. It actually looks really fun and the graphics are very pretty, not to mention you can get wings and fly! It looks alot like World of Warcraft by looking at the interface but that's about all they have on common. I just don't have the time for an MMO. 5 of my friends are playing already, if they still love it in a month, I'll consider at least picking up the 10 day trial.

Wild Sweet Orange

Have you heard Wild Sweet Orange? This is why I love using Pandora, I run across so many artists I would have never listened to otherwise! I got some really good stuff today but this is one of the only bands I heard that I've liked almost every song I played. Here's a link to their Myspace Profile, there's a lot of songs on there. They have video embedding disabled on YouTube but search it, love it and uh..buy the album :)

In other news, I finally rented Little Big Planet and MAN is it great. Sackboy is the cutest video game character I have ever seen! The levels are fun, you basically have to figure out how to move from beginning to end by moving things around, swinging from stuff and things like while collecting items throughout. There are challenges to do between levels. The graphics are cool, its almost like claymation but they are so spot on things move when you nudge it. My Sackboy is actually an orange Sackgirl with purple pigtails and bunny ears, hehe. I also picked up Assassins Creed because I hadn't played it and I saw a commercial for Assassins Creed 2 and it looks badass, so I want to play through the first one before November when 2 comes out. Its got everything I love in an RPG game plus beautiful graphics! Its gonna be fun, there are a TON of movement that'll take some getting used to though.

October is almost here and its going to be an exciting month! Charleston in 2 weeks, Kristina and Bennies wedding and Nicole's moms 50th the weekend after that and Myrtle Beach the weekend after that! Shannon is trying to talk me into going to AZ for Halloween and I might do it, I miss her like mad and we'd have a blast. Shes moving into her new house so it would be cool if I could get out there to check it out, after all, it might be my future home soon!

All in all this was a great weekend, I decided to get into Lost and I can stream all the seasons to my Xbox so Cody and I watched a ton of them Saturday. Heard some new music and picked up a couple games, couldn't ask for a more relaxing weekend!

I just ordered Scribblenauts for my DS, something fun and cute to do on my lunch breaks at work. I had enough points on my Check Card to get a $25 Amazon.com gift card so I got the game for free! I'm waiting for Blockbuster to have Little Big World available so I can try it out, Sackboy is the cutest video game character I've seen! Considered trying to sew my own, I have't sewn in awhile and what a better way to mix two things I love?! Too bad the game is only available on PS3, but with my brother staying here he's got one so I get to play!

Having the Xbox 360, PS3 and Wii all in my house I've had ample time to decide, I like the Xbox the best. I also found out that my favorite web show The Guild is available from Xbox Life FREE and in HD!

How cool is it that you can post blogs via a text message. Too bad my phone limits texts to 160 characters.

too controversial for religious America

I've written paragraph after paragraph as to why it annoys me that this film has been deemed "too controversial" for America but I didn't want this post to be long and preachy. Rather than go on a tirade, know that this annoys me considering all the other crap that gets put into our theaters. Even if you are a devout Christian and you want to tell your kids that Charles Darwin "directly influenced Adolph Hitler", he was a real person with a theory. We show other movies about things that happened in our pasts. I am positive this movie is not about telling your kids to stop being a Christian. But stopping people from seeing it is just ridiculous, I'd rather see you stop showing movies with people hacking other people to bits for fun.

You get to karate kick a helicopter!

Hell Yes.

Just got back from VA Beach with the fam. Had a nice time. Got to eat at my favorite Puerto Rican place, Mojito. Played in the ocean, got a tattoo and shopped for puppies with Lindsy and Jake. All in all, it was a nice mini break away from home, I haven't left town in awhile.

Today was 9-9-09 and it was Brandon and Jake's birthdays. I find it kind of funny that those 2 have the same birthday, they are SO much alike too. I looked up their sign just to see if it was right and it really is true: modest, shy, intelligent, analytical, live in their minds, calm and collected...yea that's definitely those two! I hope they both had a great birthday, I'm pretty sure Jakes girlfriend did something silly like draw LOL Cats on his car or try to Rickroll him and last time I heard from Brandon he was hyped about getting a Choco Taco, haha.

I saw District 9 tonight. It was pretty cool. I'm not a blood and guts girl but the way they blew the bodies up in that movie with the alien guns was pretty spectacular! It was nice to get out of the house, get my mind off things for a little while.

I wrote my cousin Mike a letter yesterday. I've decided to only write Mike when I am in a positive frame of mind because I realized I wrote him 5 pages about being a good person. He's in jail and its probably not my place to lecture him, I'm sure he gets that enough and he's been in there long enough to know what constitutes good and bad. I am debating whether or not to send the letter.

"I think of you everytime I browse my cell phone on the toilet"

I'm awake at 4am, good news is I found this site and its hilarious. Flirting and Thinking of you sections are great so far!

YTMND never gets old

Like This

Old one but still makes me giggle

I can't believe they made fun of my Rachael Ray

I could link these all day Last one

So basically, I feel like I did about 400 situps. I kinda wish I had because then I'd have done something productive to cause the intense pain in my stomach and lower back. I suppose I should go to the doctor today. Damnit.

http://www.someecards.com/card/get-well-soon-so-that-i-find-you-attractive-again

Bubble Wonderland

Happily and sadly Blizzard just announced at Blizzcon the 3rd expansion to my beloved World of Warcraft. Which started a week long chat between my old wow friends and myself about the possibility of starting to play again. They are downloading as we speak. New classes include Worgen (hell yes) and Goblins for the horde because they were jealous of gnomes and dwarfs. 85 level cap, underwater mounts, new stuff in the Barrens, oh my. Its calling my name.

In an attempt to completely separate myself today I tried to give away my account but nobody would take it. Vince offered to save me:

vtroyan (2:04:09 PM): oh and btw dont you DARE play wow!

shynnee123 (2:04:16 PM):

shynnee123 (2:04:27 PM): i tried to give away my account today so i wouldn't

vtroyan (2:05:13 PM): throw all your cd's away

shynnee123 (2:05:19 PM): you don't need em!

shynnee123 (2:05:27 PM): i can download right from the site!

shynnee123 (2:05:29 PM): muahahahaha

vtroyan (2:05:34 PM): let me log into your account and Ill change your password to lahogwonhgbaqnopqbwkqwpnwiqwg

I should let him do it.

Speaking of Vince. I love this guy, I wish I could save all of our chats because I nearly piss myself every time I talk to him.

shynnee123 (2:14:19 PM): so i just talked to this guy that messaged me online. he is 28, works at wendys and dosen't have a car or a drivers license for that matter. and he got mad at me for saying i'm not interested. because "nobody is interested in getting to know people anymore"

vtroyan (2:15:35 PM): umm how do you meet these people

shynnee123 (2:16:14 PM): hell if i know.

shynnee123 (2:16:22 PM): but i lucked out with name removed

vtroyan (2:16:49 PM): and me....HELLO

shynnee123 (2:17:00 PM): well i meant dating wise

vtroyan (2:17:08 PM): geez man, just cover me with dirt why dont you!

vtroyan (2:17:10 PM): :P

shynnee123 (2:17:16 PM): you're like my internet soul mate

vtroyan (2:17:32 PM): LOL man does that make me sound like a super mega loser

shynnee123 (2:17:38 PM): no!

shynnee123 (2:18:10 PM): if i didn't have you, onyxier and rhino would make sense to nobody

shynnee123 (2:18:15 PM): or the loser sheet set

shynnee123 (2:18:18 PM): or mate or die

shynnee123 (2:18:24 PM): we're fucking geniuses

shynnee123 (2:18:26 PM): vince

vtroyan (2:18:34 PM): lmao onyxier

In other news, my mother brought 6 tubes of bubbles home from my aunts wedding so I get to turn my living room into "bubble wonderland" on a nightly basis. My life rules.

Lately I have been making things seem more difficult than they really are for myself and this morning it hit me. I've always tried to simplify my life, too much stress is never a good thing and I don't know why I suddenly felt like life was too much. I am very pursuaded by other people and I am sort of embarrassed to admit that when I see others very stressed and frazzled and I'm not I feel like I'm doing something wrong, like I missed something I shouldn't have and I start searching for whatever it was I thought I might be missing. But the truth is, I don't need to be stressed, I'm not missing anything I'm just handling my life correctly and that's why I'm not overwhelmed. I am overwhelming myself trying to find out why I'm not overwhelmed!! Sad, I know. lol.

I was out Sunday night talking to this beautiful man at the bar (I had Monday off, I'm not normally a Sunday partier) and I glanced at myself in the wall sized mirror and realized I was horribly, pasty white. I am going to a tanning bed immediately after work today, I don't want to be bronzed and fake looking but I definately need to look less....dead.

Sunday I leave for my last week in NC, I need to get a plan in place to not fall off the good eating and spending habit train I have been on for the last few weeks. I think I'll buy a cooler and premake some meals that I can just put in the fridge in the hotel and heat up through the week and try to avoid eating out. I have managed to really get a nice sized savings account going since the BF and I broke up and I have a lot less expenses, don't want to ruin it while out of town. Plus I somehow blew through $500 while I was in VA a couple weeks ago with my sister. She's impossible not to buy things for, I just love her!

Well the end of my early Wednesday is here!

I should have known that Twlight was going to disappoint. I was replaying the book in my head as the movie went on and it was making it worse! Had I not already known the story of Edward and Bella it might have been a good movie, B-rated maybe as it wasn't very well executed by the actors but defiately not box office quality. I understand for times sake they had to re arrange the story and for the most part they didnt' miss too many key plot points; I still would have liked it to be more like the story. The funny part is, reading the book and knowing how people were supposed to act (because the author was very detailed on the characters mannerisms) I could tell the actors were trying to portray the character exactly, probably not the best idea. Anyway I have to give Twilight, the movie C+ (the + was for effort).

My foot is huge today, can't wait to see the doc next week. There has to be something they can do to either improve circulation or keep the swelling down. At this point I dont' think that it my veins causing the issue. I have always had bad circulation and swelling ankles and the blood clot made the circulation worse. Tired of wearing the dumb support "hose" as I can't wear ANY of my cute shoes with those hideous thick white things on. UGH!

OK that was too much complaining for one post. What happy thing can I say for today..hmm. My teller supervisor is doing fantastic getting me leads and referrals, hopefully she is successful in coaching her tellers to do the same things. She does exactly what I tell her to do and I think after we get more comfortable with each other she's going to be a huge asset.

come get your man

My step dad called me last night to have a "heart to heart" with me. He is determined to get me back together with Adam. He says we are meant to be together and doesn't matter what I do with my life I will end up with Adam so I might as well just come get him now. I talk to Adam every week and I would say 3/5 times we talk, we end up fighting. Sad part is that its the same old stuff we found about when we were together. Some things never change. We make wonderful friends, horrible spouses. Not to mention, even my lobster wouldn't get me to move back to Illinois.

Tonight i'm going to see Twilight. Can't wait, I read the book and I'm hoping the movie can live up to my imagination. Never really does but we'll see!

My foot is huge. When I get home at night you can see the imprint of my shoe. It is so annoying!

this damn old desk!! I fight with it night after night trying to get it locked, there has to be a trick besides slamming the desk drawer until it works! Alas, if that's all I have to worry about...life is good. And it truly is.

Work has been wonderful, I was in training in Winston Salem, Nc all last week and I learned soo many things! I feel well equipped to understand the inner workings of my branch and I know how to coach and engage my employees. In 2 weeks I go back and learn how to make retail loans. The pre-homework before the class is gruelling but totally worth it, I've been wanting to learn this for a long time.

My apartment is messy! I need to do laundry and every night I think I will go home and take care of all that something comes up, someone wants to go out or I want to do something else. This is a good, not a bad thing because I wasn't this busy when I was actually living with someone that should have already been doing these things with me! I love where I live, I don't care if it gets a little messy because I'm happy, so happy.

World of warcraft is fun, I haven't played too too much lately with everything going on. I made a good group of friends and I'm currently raiding my shaman (as a healer) and leveling my mage (she's 78 now). I made a hunter to play around with, doubt anything will happen with her but I kind of wish it would. I should have been a female dwarf ages ago!

ha! That's all for now

CYA!

Hola Journal!
Today is Ty's birthday and I forgot my phone!!! I'll see him tonight tho at his birthday party, my stomach is churning about going. His girlfriend, who apparently doesn't like me much, is going to be there and I doubt he mustered up the balls to let her know I was invited. I got him Aqua Di Gio, the most amazing smelling cologne on the planet. Jamie used to wear it, you know when you date someone and then you end up hating them usually anything that reminds you of that person you don't like? There is nothing on the planet that would make me stop swooning for Aqua Di Gio! Why not let my oldest friend smell like it?

You know for the last year of trying to keep this journal updated I always had nothing to say, because I literally did nothing and now I have so much to update! I am thrilled with life right now.

work is going good, I am at my new branch for the second week and its still slow. I am having to cold call people to drum up a little business! That's all I will update for now this is getting a little long.

I managed to have a very busy week this week! So much for being "alone".
Tuesday I went bowling with Ty and some of his friends. Last night was my Christmas party with my old branch and tonight I'm going to one with my new branch! I think I won't go anywhere tomorrow because Saturday I'm hanging out with myspace and Sunday I am going to lunch with Robin.

I haven't been playing much WoW since I moved. I know I really want to because at work this morning I used my WoW login ID instead of my work one lololol! Since Wrath came out I haven't got a really good handle on gear, I don't know whats out there I dont' know anything about set pieces and where to get them. I need to study up because Perla is sick of being Enhancement, I wanna heal! Cersi is being the epitome of a glass cannon, she's only 73 at the moment but still wearing t6 which is giving me awesome dps but no HP compared to these mobs. Thank god I specced frost!

Hoping for Christmas my family decides to send me money instead of presents because I would like to finish decorating my apartment and still be able to pay off the furniture and other things that I bought on credit.

I don't want to ever relive what happened to me over the last 2 weeks so I'll summarize: I got a blood clot from using birth control, it hurt more than anything I have ever felt before, it still hurts. I spent 6 days in a hospital but I am out now and back to work.

Now. I got an apartment at The Waterford and I love it. Thank god for my mother who came to help me move and extended her stay when I got sick, she helped me move in and furnish the place. Its really nice, I love the colors i chose and I honestly love coming home to a place that is all mine and being able to do whatever I please.

Tonight I'm going bowling with Ty. Ty is a childhood friend that moved to SC when he was in high school, lucky me that I moved to the same town he did! He's been a blessing to say the least, helping me move and keeping me company and letting me vent to him!

I am officially in my new branch as manager and I am currently putting together a meeting to help us get to know each other and set some goals and boundaries. I'm excited, I wish I didn't feel so medicated all day because I know i'm being quieter than I normally would be.

Ok it seems that one week is my official break up get over it time frame. I successfully made it through an entire day without crying, getting very sad and I ate more than once. Over the past few days I have:

-Rented an Apartment in a community I think I am really going to like
-Turned on electric, cable and internet as well as bought renters insurance
-Recieved flowers from my 2 best friends which had a card that read "the rat bastard didn't deserve you" hehe
-Found out that 3 of my friends think they are in love with me-lovely ego boost
-Realized that though my family is far away, they care for me and are willing to help me do anything

So, what of me now? I want to take this time in my life to truly explore what interests me. I will have a lot of time on my hands and while work is going to be seriously hard over the next 6 or so months, I promise myself that I will expierence at least one new thing a month. Join clubs and participate in more activities. I'm a young, single, successful girl!!

So my boyfriend and I broke up. Its been several days but I'm just coming to terms with whats happening. He's not being very nice at the moment and I am currently trying to find a nice place to live so I can try and pick up my peices and move on. He says he decided that he dosen't want to be in a relationship and he regrets missing out on things he got to do when he was single. He thought when we started dating starting a family is what he wanted but now he has changed his mind.

Its pretty heartbreaking after 2 years to find out that he just changed his mind. Its been creeping along for the last several months but I thought he would just come to his senses. I guess he did but not on the terms I was hoping for. I'm not thrilled, I am actually pretty depressed. But I have friends that are helping me so that's nice.

I have the memory capacity of a pea. I swear to god if you told me something right now in 3 minutes i would probably forget what it was you just said to me. I try and write everythign down so I won't forget important things but occasionally something slips through the cracks. Today it did and I feel like such an ass! I promised a client I would order him some checks because he needed them to pay some bills....last week on Friday. Here it is a new Friday and he comes in looking for them, not here because I forgot to order them. DAMN.

Last night was a productive evening on the Borean Tundra. I have become very good at the art of mob stealing. Since there are generally 10-15 people standing in the spot where said monster is waiting to be killed, I need to be the first to do so. /target mobname /cast earth shock macro works best. Speaking of combat. I recently made the switch from Resto which is what I have been since I turned 70 to enhancement in order to be more productive leveling. I have to say, I freakin love it! I'm not too happy about lava lash I thought that would be more fun but its a nice instant spell to throw into the rotation. I plan on doing all 130 quests in the tundra before leaving so that I don't have to come back and do them again for the achievement. Theres a lot of gold to be had, which is good, because learning professions has gone completely through the roof. I spent over 200g the second I landed in Valiant Keep just learning cooking and fishing.

my manager bought my dog some really cute christmas outfits!! Yes I dress my dog. Ones a little santa clause dress and the other is a little hat with a matching collar.

I got a thank you card this morning from the High School class that I went to speak to last week. Made my morning!

Stayed up until 330 am and got up at 630 to get ready for work. I'm zombiefied at the moment. will write more another time!

Its election day!

I feel torn about many things lately, I dont' think that who to choose for president should be one of them. But I am! I like each candidate for various reasons. I am usually strongly democratic. Maybe living in the south has changed my outlook on how I view things? Maybe my democratic candidate isn't as democratic as he thinks he is? Maybe I had the whole thing mixed up! Either way, I think the majority of the peoples votes are going to be on the person and not what he stands for. Which is wrong.

Election day is not a federal holiday, schools are closed because thats where many places hold elections. There is no reason for the bank to be closed today, stop calling.
My manager told me I could not come in late today so that I could vote before work. Shes not here right know, probably voting. Hoe.

After work I need to go to the gym, I've been skipping alot with the weather and the time change, I've just been tired. I need to buckle down and get back on the wagon!

Halfway through writing this blog I got a customer. He asked me if I was going to vote and I told him yes, he told me he couldn't vote because he had a criminal record. Then he proceeded to tell me that someone busted his mouth with a brick so he pulled out his shotgun...
Which candidate has tougher gun laws?

Fun weekend fun weekend. Friday I met up with the girl I had met on Craigslist. She was really nice, we went to a movie and to O'Charlies. OMG O'Charlies terakyi chicken is the BEST it was so yummy.
Saturday morning Tim and I got up at 6am to mount an attack on the Horde. Us and 38 other people got together and killed all 4 horde city leaders. Its the achievement "For the Alliance" and we were rewarded with a Black War Bear! What so unique about this? Well for one, they changed the level of the bosses to 80 to make it more difficult, so if you're thinking blah blah I've killed Thrall before, think again. He's harder and Carine is damn near impossible. Not to mention we are on a PvP server which means we had horde to worry about. All in all it was amazing, we won and I can't wait to do it again!! Also, 3 of our 4 leaders remain undefeated. They managed to kill the Exodar leader with 3 full 40 man raids, however it took several hours thanks to us. good times.
Saturday evening we went to a birthday party and cooked hotwings and hung out by the campfire and Sunday I went to a haunted house OOOOoooo!

This has been the most eventful weekend of my year lol. I had a great time.

Memo

"Please join us in congratulating (Me) who has accepted the position of Banking Network Branch Manager at our St Matthews Branch. She has served as a teller and is currently a Relationship Banker at our Pelion Branch. Her passion around client service and teamwork will be instrumental in her success at St Matthews.

Please help us congratulate (Me)! We wish you the very best in your new role!!"

WooHoo!!

I went out to meet my new branch yesterday, seem like a nice group. Very small branch, I thought Pelion was small, this takes the cake! Its quaint tho, I think I am going to like it and so far the people that I did meet were very friendly.

Big News, Big News!!
I hate when I have HUGE big larger than life news, that I can't share!!!! All I can say is that something very big is about to happen to me and its a very good thing but since its unofficial, I can't tell anyone yet! The second I know, I'll post. Promise.

Besides that, my sister left for VA this morning. Its bittersweet. I'm happy to restore order to my home and I am sad because I won't have my little sissy-poo to hang out with!!

You know I just now, like 3 seconds ago noticed that I can tag my entries? I'm doing that now.

This weekend was much fun! I went to the Riverbanks Zoo with my sister. We parked on the botanical garden side and rode the tram into the zoo. Spent the entire afternoon looking at animals and spending time together. It was nice. After the zoo we went to Fuddruckers and then went shoe shopping. All in all, a wonderful Sunday afternoon.

Today and for the rest of this week I have a trainee with me, Maggie. Shes sweet as ever and I can't wait for her to get going in this job because I think she will do really well with it. She's currently in the other room taking some online tests, which gives me a minute to update!

Tonight theres a dinner at the local High School that I'm going to attend. I wore my suit again and thus feel very important today!

I didn't watch the debate =O

I generally have a pretty good feel for the election but this year I have exactly zero interest in it. Instead I played World of Warcraft, halfway through the night I decided I would have been happier watching the debate. We were learning a new boss and basically just dying again and again. It wasn't that thrilling.

I decided to send Shannon an edible arrangement. I see the commercials all the time and I think it would be a neat "I'm thinking about you gift". Trying to think of something clever to put on the card.

I truly am a horrible conversationalist on the phone. I could talk and talk in person but seriously, on the phone I get toally distracted. I can't listen to someone I can't see, I think. I just want to walk around, clean up or do something other than sit there and talk. This poses a problem because my bestest friend lives in Arizona and the only communication we have really is via phone. I am going to send her flowers.

I met a man named Jessie Dukes today, isn't that a cool name? Sounds like a gangster! He's a very tall very nice looking man that sells used cars. I guess in the current situation its also a very hokey name for a used car salesman but its a neat name nontheless.

I am 90% sure nobody reads this blog, but if you trip across it and you know how to make a twitter feed on my page, can you leave me some instructions? That'd be wonderful, thanks.

Happy Banker Day! Thats what Vince calls it anyway, I get off at 2 on Wednesdays, I love it. After work I will be heading to game stop to pre-order my Wrath of the Lich King expansion for WoW this afternoon and then afterwards do a little shoe shopping. I love Banker Day!

I am eating a South Beach Diet protein bar, they really do fill you up for quite a while. I also like the Special K protein water for when I'm hungry but not starving, just to take the edge off. Paying attention to when and why I get hungry makes me realize sometimes I only eat because I'm bored or don't know what else to do. These 2 things have been my savior for the last couple weeks!

Today is the first day of our 4th quarter campaign at work. I have a whole new set of goals to meet in sales and I truly would like to make them all. Especially credit cards which seems to be the bane of my existence. My trainee starts back next Monday after being in class for a week and I really want to be a good inspiration to her!

At home things seem quiet. After our talk a couple of weeks ago, Timothy is either still thinking or has decided. I think I won't push him for a few more weeks for a straight answer. My sister is moving out on Monday of next week and I'll give him a couple of weeks after that and then I'll press him. Either way I am prepared for whatever his answer may be. I can move forward if necessary, I have chosen an apartment and if shannon moves out this way I will have a roomate. If he decides we should stay together I have some ground rules that need to be followed so as to never end up in this situation again. We'll see, we'll see.

I started a new workout at the gym this morning. Its called reverse something, basically you do all your normal exercises except you focus on the return position instead of pushing outward...if that makes sense. you lift the weight quickly then slowly return back. Its much more difficult that it sounded when he told me about it! I'm a little sore and I usually am not.
I also want to start a food journal, I haven't decided how exactly to go about it, I've tried the online ones in the past but I never keep them up, I think maybe i'll just get a written journal to keep in my purse and write it as it happens.

Its a gloomy Friday. At least its cool outside though. I wore my suit today. Mostly just to prove to myself I could pull it off. I got a lot of compliments so it made me feel better. Usually I put it on and wear it around the house a bit and then take it off. I don't know why it makes me feel fat. I needed to prove to myself i'm not fat after Wednesday being told that after all my hard work at the gym I gained 7 pounds and 3% body fat. Which is totally not true, how am I fitting into the suit that didn't fit before?! She measured wrong. Maybe next time she will measure right and i'll have lost twice the fat!

This weekend is serious house cleaning time. My sister is moving out in 10 days and I will have a little order back, now I will only have Timothy to clean up after and he's a whole house mess of his own. I also want to work on my quilt, I need to make the settings on my sewing machine right again tho because my stitches are too loose and you can see them when you pull on the fabric. Its really looking pretty however, I like the colors and pattern that we picked out. Mom will love it.

Today is my Life Force weigh in. I find out if I made my goal for the last 3 months, which was 10 pounds and some body fat. I'm 80% sure I have much less body fat but I don't feel like I lost the weight. Mostly because I've been strength training more than doing cardio/fat burning exercises. Either way, any improvement will make me happy and keep my work happy so they continue to pay for my insurance!

So today I am sending certified mail to all of the clients that showed up on my annual safe box audit. Throughout the year I have called these people again and again asking them to come in but they don't and I get in trouble. I hate it. HATE IT

I'm slowly losing my mind. Do I beat myself up about things, or am I being beaten up? I can't tell anymore. Every little comment, lack of a comment seems to mean more than what it probably does, or does it? I can't tell anymore.

Lately I've just been bummed out. I take no joy in other people. Maybe its my job, I love what I do when its for the better. Helping people out of a jam, giving advice where needed or providing a service my client truly needed. Its the ones that take advantage that disappoint. Day in and day out listening to people talk about how hard it is to manage finances is taking a toll on me. They come for advice but what they really want is a free ticket out, and IF you give that to them, they aren't grateful, they come back again and again with a new story and new reason.

Positive Thinking

I heard something today that while I think is clear to most people I realize working with people that are down on their luck or just can't seem to keep their heads up that this concept is not clear to everyone. It is that if you think positive thoughts and you act on them your life will remain positive and good things will happen.

I hear all day long, "I can't get a job because [insert well thought out reason here]" or "I just can't seem to stay on top because [insert reason to blame someone else here]." I can honstly say from expierence that if you are constantly thinking, this is how my life will remain becuase of [whatever reason] and I just have to deal with it, then that's exactly how it will stay, sucky.

The words that come out of your mouth and the actions that you take are a direct response from whats going on in your head. Think something positive, read something positive if you can't seem to get negative things off your mind or talk to someone that can get you out of your funk!
I use google as my home page and if you didn't know they recently changed it so you can customize what's on it when you log on. My page has quotes, jokes and advice. It gives me something to think about and talk about everyday. The point is, find some way to bring something positive into your mind as soon as you start your day.

Sorry for preaching guys but sometimes I just want to shake people and say to them "the only person doing this to you is YOU!"

17 pounds!

yesterday was my first weigh-in at curves and i lost some weight woo hoo, in addition i lost a total of 2.7% of my body fat and 4.5 inches all around. I'm impressed with myself, makes me want to keep going. omw to work, more later.

Deer Legs!

I brought bella to the vet today for her first visit. She needs her shots and I wanted to ask the vet if she maybe knew how old she was and possibly what breed she was. its obvious that she's a chihuahua but she really looks like maybe shes mixed with a min pin. The vet tells me she's a "deer legged" chihuahua, which I have never heard of. Anyway I got home and looked up this deer legged dog online and found many comments about how this is not an actual breed. I still think she looks like she's got a min pin in her. Either way, she's 4.5 lbs, happy and healthy. she's going back in sept for her second round of shots and to get spayed (she's really gonna love me after that one >< )