Lately I have been making things seem more difficult than they really are for myself and this morning it hit me. I've always tried to simplify my life, too much stress is never a good thing and I don't know why I suddenly felt like life was too much. I am very pursuaded by other people and I am sort of embarrassed to admit that when I see others very stressed and frazzled and I'm not I feel like I'm doing something wrong, like I missed something I shouldn't have and I start searching for whatever it was I thought I might be missing. But the truth is, I don't need to be stressed, I'm not missing anything I'm just handling my life correctly and that's why I'm not overwhelmed. I am overwhelming myself trying to find out why I'm not overwhelmed!! Sad, I know. lol.
I was out Sunday night talking to this beautiful man at the bar (I had Monday off, I'm not normally a Sunday partier) and I glanced at myself in the wall sized mirror and realized I was horribly, pasty white. I am going to a tanning bed immediately after work today, I don't want to be bronzed and fake looking but I definately need to look less....dead.
Sunday I leave for my last week in NC, I need to get a plan in place to not fall off the good eating and spending habit train I have been on for the last few weeks. I think I'll buy a cooler and premake some meals that I can just put in the fridge in the hotel and heat up through the week and try to avoid eating out. I have managed to really get a nice sized savings account going since the BF and I broke up and I have a lot less expenses, don't want to ruin it while out of town. Plus I somehow blew through $500 while I was in VA a couple weeks ago with my sister. She's impossible not to buy things for, I just love her!
Well the end of my early Wednesday is here!