Clearly

I'm moving! Not far though.

My apartment complex emailed me last week to let me know my lease was expiring. I had planned on renewing but I wanted to check the complex next to mine to see what rates they were offering on their one bedrooms. So I emailed her back and said I was thinking about moving because they were bigger next door. I get an email back from her offering me an upgrade. 200 more square feet and a fireplace for the same price I was going to renew my current lease for! How awesome is that?! I move Friday.

I think its great how usually when you tell people you're moving they have 100 other things to do. But everyone I have told has offered to help! I have people supplying boxes, helping me pack, moving my big stuff and helping me unpack! This should be great!!

I preordered Left 4 Dead 2 and while in Game Stop I almost ordered Assassins Creed 2 as well but they had a deal going on, trade in 2 games and get it for $20. SWEET. So Tuesday when I pick up L4D2 I'm gonna snag Assassins Creed 2! Great week for gaming.

I downloaded "Never Been to Spain" by Three Dog Night the other day. So far I'm the only person I know that loves the song. Clearly I have amazing taste and everyone else sucks. Clearly.

Lately I have been making things seem more difficult than they really are for myself and this morning it hit me. I've always tried to simplify my life, too much stress is never a good thing and I don't know why I suddenly felt like life was too much. I am very pursuaded by other people and I am sort of embarrassed to admit that when I see others very stressed and frazzled and I'm not I feel like I'm doing something wrong, like I missed something I shouldn't have and I start searching for whatever it was I thought I might be missing. But the truth is, I don't need to be stressed, I'm not missing anything I'm just handling my life correctly and that's why I'm not overwhelmed. I am overwhelming myself trying to find out why I'm not overwhelmed!! Sad, I know. lol.

I was out Sunday night talking to this beautiful man at the bar (I had Monday off, I'm not normally a Sunday partier) and I glanced at myself in the wall sized mirror and realized I was horribly, pasty white. I am going to a tanning bed immediately after work today, I don't want to be bronzed and fake looking but I definately need to look less....dead.

Sunday I leave for my last week in NC, I need to get a plan in place to not fall off the good eating and spending habit train I have been on for the last few weeks. I think I'll buy a cooler and premake some meals that I can just put in the fridge in the hotel and heat up through the week and try to avoid eating out. I have managed to really get a nice sized savings account going since the BF and I broke up and I have a lot less expenses, don't want to ruin it while out of town. Plus I somehow blew through $500 while I was in VA a couple weeks ago with my sister. She's impossible not to buy things for, I just love her!

Well the end of my early Wednesday is here!

this damn old desk!! I fight with it night after night trying to get it locked, there has to be a trick besides slamming the desk drawer until it works! Alas, if that's all I have to worry about...life is good. And it truly is.

Work has been wonderful, I was in training in Winston Salem, Nc all last week and I learned soo many things! I feel well equipped to understand the inner workings of my branch and I know how to coach and engage my employees. In 2 weeks I go back and learn how to make retail loans. The pre-homework before the class is gruelling but totally worth it, I've been wanting to learn this for a long time.

My apartment is messy! I need to do laundry and every night I think I will go home and take care of all that something comes up, someone wants to go out or I want to do something else. This is a good, not a bad thing because I wasn't this busy when I was actually living with someone that should have already been doing these things with me! I love where I live, I don't care if it gets a little messy because I'm happy, so happy.

World of warcraft is fun, I haven't played too too much lately with everything going on. I made a good group of friends and I'm currently raiding my shaman (as a healer) and leveling my mage (she's 78 now). I made a hunter to play around with, doubt anything will happen with her but I kind of wish it would. I should have been a female dwarf ages ago!

ha! That's all for now

CYA!

I don't want to ever relive what happened to me over the last 2 weeks so I'll summarize: I got a blood clot from using birth control, it hurt more than anything I have ever felt before, it still hurts. I spent 6 days in a hospital but I am out now and back to work.

Now. I got an apartment at The Waterford and I love it. Thank god for my mother who came to help me move and extended her stay when I got sick, she helped me move in and furnish the place. Its really nice, I love the colors i chose and I honestly love coming home to a place that is all mine and being able to do whatever I please.

Tonight I'm going bowling with Ty. Ty is a childhood friend that moved to SC when he was in high school, lucky me that I moved to the same town he did! He's been a blessing to say the least, helping me move and keeping me company and letting me vent to him!

I am officially in my new branch as manager and I am currently putting together a meeting to help us get to know each other and set some goals and boundaries. I'm excited, I wish I didn't feel so medicated all day because I know i'm being quieter than I normally would be.

Ok it seems that one week is my official break up get over it time frame. I successfully made it through an entire day without crying, getting very sad and I ate more than once. Over the past few days I have:

-Rented an Apartment in a community I think I am really going to like
-Turned on electric, cable and internet as well as bought renters insurance
-Recieved flowers from my 2 best friends which had a card that read "the rat bastard didn't deserve you" hehe
-Found out that 3 of my friends think they are in love with me-lovely ego boost
-Realized that though my family is far away, they care for me and are willing to help me do anything

So, what of me now? I want to take this time in my life to truly explore what interests me. I will have a lot of time on my hands and while work is going to be seriously hard over the next 6 or so months, I promise myself that I will expierence at least one new thing a month. Join clubs and participate in more activities. I'm a young, single, successful girl!!