I mean, seriously, NOWHERE? For starters there are like a thousand species of dinosaurs

HAHA, this IS totally me.

This weekend will be a good time. Tomorrow morning I am headed out to Nicole's house to set up for her mom's surprise 50th bday party, then going over to Newberry for Kristina and Bennies wedding (yay guys!). Then back out to Nicoles for the party, I LOVE her mom. This lady took me in as her own kid almost immediately, inviting me to family stuff like Thanksgiving, Christmas and New Years when my family wasn't here. Totally being there for me when I was having issues with Tim. I'm stoked to celebrate her birthday!

I don't think my mom realizes that Lindsy and I keep NO secrets. Literally, I don't think I can even speak to my sister without telling her every little detail about everything in my life. We just don't do secrets. So mom tells Lindsy that she's been watching LOST on her laptop without Cody and I and not to tell me. WTF!? She's ruining family night! She went so far as to buy her own Netflix subscription so that we wouldn't see that she shows had been watched (on xbox when you watch a show it marks it as watched even if you delete it from the queue and re-add it). So of course Lindsy calls me right away with this news. jerk.

Next week starts my eat right and stop being a fat girl routine. I'm going to blog about it so I have some accountability. You can find the blog here okfinefinefine.blogspot.com don't look today, its not started yet. I have a little motivation to do what I'm doing so hopefully I can stick to it.

Lately I have been making things seem more difficult than they really are for myself and this morning it hit me. I've always tried to simplify my life, too much stress is never a good thing and I don't know why I suddenly felt like life was too much. I am very pursuaded by other people and I am sort of embarrassed to admit that when I see others very stressed and frazzled and I'm not I feel like I'm doing something wrong, like I missed something I shouldn't have and I start searching for whatever it was I thought I might be missing. But the truth is, I don't need to be stressed, I'm not missing anything I'm just handling my life correctly and that's why I'm not overwhelmed. I am overwhelming myself trying to find out why I'm not overwhelmed!! Sad, I know. lol.

I was out Sunday night talking to this beautiful man at the bar (I had Monday off, I'm not normally a Sunday partier) and I glanced at myself in the wall sized mirror and realized I was horribly, pasty white. I am going to a tanning bed immediately after work today, I don't want to be bronzed and fake looking but I definately need to look less....dead.

Sunday I leave for my last week in NC, I need to get a plan in place to not fall off the good eating and spending habit train I have been on for the last few weeks. I think I'll buy a cooler and premake some meals that I can just put in the fridge in the hotel and heat up through the week and try to avoid eating out. I have managed to really get a nice sized savings account going since the BF and I broke up and I have a lot less expenses, don't want to ruin it while out of town. Plus I somehow blew through $500 while I was in VA a couple weeks ago with my sister. She's impossible not to buy things for, I just love her!

Well the end of my early Wednesday is here!

Its election day!

I feel torn about many things lately, I dont' think that who to choose for president should be one of them. But I am! I like each candidate for various reasons. I am usually strongly democratic. Maybe living in the south has changed my outlook on how I view things? Maybe my democratic candidate isn't as democratic as he thinks he is? Maybe I had the whole thing mixed up! Either way, I think the majority of the peoples votes are going to be on the person and not what he stands for. Which is wrong.

Election day is not a federal holiday, schools are closed because thats where many places hold elections. There is no reason for the bank to be closed today, stop calling.
My manager told me I could not come in late today so that I could vote before work. Shes not here right know, probably voting. Hoe.

After work I need to go to the gym, I've been skipping alot with the weather and the time change, I've just been tired. I need to buckle down and get back on the wagon!

Halfway through writing this blog I got a customer. He asked me if I was going to vote and I told him yes, he told me he couldn't vote because he had a criminal record. Then he proceeded to tell me that someone busted his mouth with a brick so he pulled out his shotgun...
Which candidate has tougher gun laws?

Happy Banker Day! Thats what Vince calls it anyway, I get off at 2 on Wednesdays, I love it. After work I will be heading to game stop to pre-order my Wrath of the Lich King expansion for WoW this afternoon and then afterwards do a little shoe shopping. I love Banker Day!

I am eating a South Beach Diet protein bar, they really do fill you up for quite a while. I also like the Special K protein water for when I'm hungry but not starving, just to take the edge off. Paying attention to when and why I get hungry makes me realize sometimes I only eat because I'm bored or don't know what else to do. These 2 things have been my savior for the last couple weeks!

Its a gloomy Friday. At least its cool outside though. I wore my suit today. Mostly just to prove to myself I could pull it off. I got a lot of compliments so it made me feel better. Usually I put it on and wear it around the house a bit and then take it off. I don't know why it makes me feel fat. I needed to prove to myself i'm not fat after Wednesday being told that after all my hard work at the gym I gained 7 pounds and 3% body fat. Which is totally not true, how am I fitting into the suit that didn't fit before?! She measured wrong. Maybe next time she will measure right and i'll have lost twice the fat!

This weekend is serious house cleaning time. My sister is moving out in 10 days and I will have a little order back, now I will only have Timothy to clean up after and he's a whole house mess of his own. I also want to work on my quilt, I need to make the settings on my sewing machine right again tho because my stitches are too loose and you can see them when you pull on the fabric. Its really looking pretty however, I like the colors and pattern that we picked out. Mom will love it.

Today is my Life Force weigh in. I find out if I made my goal for the last 3 months, which was 10 pounds and some body fat. I'm 80% sure I have much less body fat but I don't feel like I lost the weight. Mostly because I've been strength training more than doing cardio/fat burning exercises. Either way, any improvement will make me happy and keep my work happy so they continue to pay for my insurance!

So today I am sending certified mail to all of the clients that showed up on my annual safe box audit. Throughout the year I have called these people again and again asking them to come in but they don't and I get in trouble. I hate it. HATE IT